sleep. and not sleeping.

See, I told you I was unreliable! So I'm sitting here in my kids room listening to my now two year old son cry for who knows why. Then I realize his usual allergy cough sounds deeper and his nose is stuffy. Oh, wait. Now my 4 year old is crying and she sounds like she swallowed a frog. Yay. Weren't they just sick? Like, last week? Isn't the season for sickness over? WILL I EVER SLEEP AGAIN? I've been reading that a good night sleep is essential for good health, weight loss, happiness, etc. Well, my sleep tank is running on empty and there's nothing I can do about it. Every night after my kids are in bed I sit and dread the time my husband says "I'm going to bed." Because I know that means I should go to bed too. But for him, bedtime usually means his head hits the pillow and he's snoring. Like a bear. And all I can do is lay there and listen. And maybe gently kick him once in a while when I fear he may actually be a bear ready to eat me. And just when my brain starts to quiet down, and my legs stop jerking long enough for me drift to off to sleep, a little one starts to cry. By the time I finally can leave their room and go back to mine, guess what? Now I have the hiccups. And I'm hungry. And the cat is on my pillow.

Here goes

Hi. My name is Sarah and I am new to the blogging world. (I know, it's sad.) I am admittedly not very reliable when it comes to updating things and consistency. In fact, that is why I decided to start a blog. My hope is that I will find someone who is like me and going through some of the same things I am. I'm not the most eloquent writer either. One of my new years resolutions was to be more true to myself and gain confidence. So I am going to try something completely uncharacteristic for me and start saying exactly what I feel. This is something I almost never do. So, here goes. I am a stay at home mom of two amazing, beautiful, obnoxious, smart, funny, amazing kids. Gabby is four and a half, and Ewan will be two in April. I struggle daily with my kids, cleaning, and trying to have a good attitude. My husband sees a lot more in me than I do, which is awesome, but doesn't really help me to motivate myself. I love him, and my kids very much and I am hoping that this will be the year I find out who it is I really want to be. My house is usually a disaster and I can never seem to stay on top of it. I love to sew, especially for my kids, and make bows. I've tried selling some of the thing I've made on Etsy, but so far, no one is biting. I have just started learning how to repurpose some of my clothes that don't fit (which is most of them :) ) for my daughter. It has been really fun and rewarding to learn something new, and feel like I'm pretty good at it. Well, there's a start. More to come another day!